It’s hard to believe that’s its only been 2 months since we have brought this crush into fruition. It seems like we have been dating for years. I had set some boundaries for myself that I was determined not to cross, but it is getting very difficult.
You know there are certain times of the month when a woman just feels….well…. Uncontrollably horny… I am so there right now….lol
Now while our relationship is not that of a sexual nature I have to admit there are times when this man makes me want to take the P out of HOPE and do things that would not be very Christian or lady like 😉
Although we have known each other for quite some time, we have only been “dating” for the past couple of months so when is too soon.
I know, I know we are both adults, neither one of us virgins and we have thought this relationship out completely
But I still feel the need to restrain myself….if not for any other reason as that I made a celibacy commitment to myself 5 years ago and have been faithful to it. Gorgeous is aware of this and says that is one of the things he admires about me…but he agrees it is hard, pun intended 😉
So the easiest thing to do would be to separate myself from the temptation, and not get myself into sticky situations….but that’s not so easy…as this relationship grows we are spending more and more time with each other, and that’s a good thing so I am not complaining. I love being with and around him and I know he feels the same way.
I am an adult and I know I can handle this and do it at anytime…. I guess what I am feeling is that I don’t want to be a hypocrite…when I speak to the youth in my program… I can proudly tell them to wait or be abstinent because I am practicing that myself…and although I understand the desires and temptations they are stronger than that desire…. But oh lordy its hard….when temptation is right in your face, on your couch, on your bed….
And I know I do not have to tell and don’t plan to tell my youth anything about what me and gorgeous do, but it’s a personal thing.
So again I say when is too soon…and do the same standards apply to adults and teenagers….
Any way… now I am just ranting… over the last 2 weeks a have written a book of poems to which I am calling
POETRY FOR LOVERS
Just wanted to warn you guys….we have not crossed over to that part of our relationship yet….but my imagination has taken over and I cannot be held responsible for the words in my blog….lol
From time to time I will post some of that poetry…maybe on hump days…lol
You are here by warned….. Read further at your own risk
So how far would you go
We will see
Look out gorgeous,